Carolyn Slaughter

What we need, wrote Franz Kafka, are books that affect us like some grievous misfortune, like the death of one whom we loved more than ourselves. Carolyn Slaughter's Before the Knife is such a book ... Slaughter's bravery has resulted in a book so searing and powerful that words cannot easily do it justice. It must, simply, be read.

Hypnotic... deeply moving and disturbing... For those willing to brave the dark without a candle, illumination lies ahead.

Painful, tragic family saga... a brave book, beautifully written and full of vivid imagery...I read it at a breathless sitting.

Shows the tragic and lasting consequences of a childhood blighted by fear and hate...writes with lyrical imprecision about the primal innocence and beauty of the Arfican way of life.

Her language is powerful, visceral... she forcefully conveys that jittery, powerful, intoxicating thing - that thing of Africa, that thing that, once you love it, you don't escape.

Written with such beauty, courage and truthfulness that it will rank with other masterpieces about life in Africa.

I greatly admired not so much the bravery of this memoir, though it is brave, as the sheer passion she lets rip. You can feel her rage and her misery and her desperation as tangible things, keeping pace with her love for Africa. How rare for a child to have had such appreciation of the country she's in, seeing its beauty, feeling its spirit

Memories Of An African Childhood

Carolyn Slaughter is the author of ten critically acclaimed novels, but for the last twelve years she has been completely silent. She had become conscious that there was something hidden in her past that had always haunted her fiction but which she had never fully faced. This powerful memoir is the result of confronting the truth about her traumatic childhood. 
 
Carolyn's father was in the colonial service, but he lacked power and was ashamed of his Irish origins. In private, he was capable of acts of absolute sadism. When Carolyn was small, they lived comfortably in Swaziland having left India during the Partition. But when she turned six, things changed. Her mother gave birth to another daughter and they were posted to a remote area in the Kalahari desert. Bereft of a civilized social life, her mother plunged into a deep depression and turned completely away from Carolyn. While her older sister found friends and left for boarding school, Carolyn suffered a desperate sense of abandonment and loss and turned to the landscape of the Kalahari itself for solace. 
 
The stark fact that Carolyn was first raped by her father at the age of six is contained within the prologue and epilogue of this book. What lies in between is the story of an extraordinary childhood in Africa and a moving depiction of the complexities at the root of our relationships with mother, father, siblings. Despite its sometimes harrowing contents, it is a work of great, dangerous beauty.

Carolyn Slaughter

Praise for Before The Knife

What we need, wrote Franz Kafka, are books that affect us like some grievous misfortune, like the death of one whom we loved more than ourselves. Carolyn Slaughter's Before the Knife is such a book ... Slaughter's b ...

Hypnotic... deeply moving and disturbing... For those willing to brave the dark without a candle, illumination lies ahead.

Painful, tragic family saga... a brave book, beautifully written and full of vivid imagery...I read it at a breathless sitting.

What we need, wrote Franz Kafka, are books that affect us like some grievous misfortune, like the death of one whom we loved more than ourselves. Carolyn Slaughter's Before the Knife is such a book ... Slaughter's b ...

Hypnotic... deeply moving and disturbing... For those willing to brave the dark without a candle, illumination lies ahead.

Painful, tragic family saga... a brave book, beautifully written and full of vivid imagery...I read it at a breathless sitting.

What we need, wrote Franz Kafka, are books that affect us like some grievous misfortune, like the death of one whom we loved more than ourselves. Carolyn Slaughter's Before the Knife is such a book ... Slaughter's b ...

Hypnotic... deeply moving and disturbing... For those willing to brave the dark without a candle, illumination lies ahead.

Painful, tragic family saga... a brave book, beautifully written and full of vivid imagery...I read it at a breathless sitting.

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