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If I Should Die Before I Wake

If I Should Die Before I Wake

Summary

In her bestselling memoir As I Lay Me Down to Sleep, Eileen Munro vividly documented the abuse she experienced at the hands of her adoptive parents and, later, within the care system. The birth of Eileen's son, Craig, and her escape from the authorities' clutches should have seen her turn a corner, but she remains haunted by the spectre of her past.

In If I Should Die Before I Wake, Eileen chronicles her search for her real parents and her battle for an education for both Craig and herself. She faces exploitation, suffers further sexual and physical abuse, and endures periods of homelessness and bad health. Still she perseveres, clinging to her hopes for the future, until she eventually finds the sense of belonging that has previously eluded her.

In this harrowing but ultimately inspirational second volume of memoir, Eileen Munro proves that, against all the odds, happiness does sometimes come to those who never give up hope.

Reviews

  • A moving testimony that exposes the shameful farce which passed for care in Scotland. Munro engages the reader with devastating honesty and humour, capturing tenderly the range of emotions that motherhood brings, aligned with a passionate quest to trace her roots and find her birth mother. A compulsive read
    Sandra Brown OBE, author of Where There is Evil

About the author

Eileen Munro

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